"The bonds between ourselves and another person exists only in our minds. Memory as it grows fainter loosens them, and notwithstanding the illusion by which we want to be duped and which, out of love, friendship, politeness, deference, duty, we dupe other people, we exist alone. Man is the creature who cannot escape from himself, who knows other people only in himself, and when he asserts the contrary, he is lying." Marcel Proust
It really made me think about all the relationships I have/had in my life. We're some of them just in my mind? Did I waste time investing more in them than I should have because I thought they were much more meaningful than the other person involved? Probably. I'm a sensitive person and I used to put everything I had in my relationships whether they be with friends, lovers, coworkers, someone I passed daily on the street...the thing is now, I don't. I'm detached from the world I live in. By choice but I say only mostly choice, I'd say a lot is circumstantial. It sucks and I've lost my way to getting back to being that person, but in retrospect, even if I could I don't think there is a middle ground with that person and I don't have expendable energy to be her anymore. She's lost to my past. Maybe it's for the best.
So on to the no shampoo. I take a lot of medicines. It all eventually grows out into your hair. Part of the reason I just chopped it off. Shampoo has a lot of shit in it. Have you ever just read the back of the bottle and could you even pronounce most of the words? So I did some research, and thought I'd try some other methods. Some theories were that some shampoos actually make your hair greasy so you will wash it more than it is needed therefore you purchase their product more often. I don't know if that's true but if I was the one pocketing the money of a product, sounds like an excellent idea to me, as long as it makes the hair look good for a day or so and smells good and doesn't harm the hair in the process!
So the method I chose is baking soda for the wash (mixing it with warm water), there are mixed reviews on baking soda and a lemon juice rince. You can google them, sorry, I didn't prepare links because I didn't think about writing a blog today. But I did snap a few pictures and maybe I'll keep some notes and share them on a little while. My hair gets really greasy and its blond and there is no hiding it, so it will be interesting to see how long it takes for my hair to adjust and how it does. As of now, my hair is greasy after one day and I have used a multitude of cheap to expensive shampoos recommended by professionals. Some of it I blame on my medicines I take, some of it is our water, we have been in this house a year and a half now and I think this is about normal now for my hair as far as our water, and the rest is friggin hormones. My next plan will be Castille soap with a little essential oil I think.
